4 days ago I began this journey into the unknown world of the unemployed. It is still one of the most shocking, stomach-turning experiences I have ever had. Kimberly says she is no longer numb. My emotions are all over the map. "Basket case" is a good description. But "zombie" might be another one. Why am I a zombie? Because it seems like right now I am like the walking dead. Or maybe I am just lying here in my 2-story casket, having individuals and small clusters of people come by periodically to pay me their last respects. It is eery and unreal. Yet it is too real. There is just too much of "what might have been" to all of this. Too much potential has been wasted.
So I begin to swing the turret of my soul forward to what is next. The map was pretty small a few days ago. Now it is vast and daunting. Did you know there are 50 states and quite a few provinces up in Canada? All of a sudden the world is huge and I am so small. I have a twinge of excitement that is beginning to flame to life. What's next? What is around the corner? Just where is the Lord leading me? I do not know, but my Heavenly Father does know. I just want to follow Him.
Now if you are reading this and forgot about my viewing hours, there are still a few months left. You are always welcome to swing by my casket and shoot the breeze. I'll be here.
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