One of the most famous verses in all of Scripture is Romans 8:28. Without getting all technical and profound, it talks about God working all things together for good. Right now I'm not seeing it. I have a hole in my heart the entire field at Talledega could speed through 4-wide. I am devastated, crushed, bruised, humiliated. The future is a black hole and I am the tiniest meteorite in the universe. I have no idea what to do next. All appearances are that I have wasted all the education I worked for and all the debt I piled up to get it. All I know how to do is what I have trained for. Nearly every other skill I have comes from the jobs I performed to support myself while I was in school.
Numb is not the right word. Numb would mean I don't feel anything. What I feel is vast and deep. Now if I was a pastor talking to someone in my situation I would recommend that this someone take a spiritual inventory... take a look around... north, south, east, west from the point of life he finds himself in. "What is God up to?" "Where is God active in the circumfrance from where I'm standing?" "How can I join God in what He's already doing?" What do you want Lord? Left? Right? Stay still? Up? Down? Back up? Charge ahead or wait in silence? Is there light at the end of this tunnel... at all? My stomach is churning. I am scared to death. But I choose to believe Your Word Lord. I believe Romans 8:28... even when I cannot see. I will serve thee... because I love thee... thou hast given life to me... I was nothing before you found me... thou hast given life to me...
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