When You Bump Into Demons In the Valley of the Shadow

So here I am in the Valley of the Shadow, I know that all I need to do is reach out into the darkness to touch Your hand. But I must admit, my heart is still pounding in my ribcage and I'm afraid it's going to burst. Do I trust You? Sure. I do. The light on the horizon is filtered and dirty and more gray than sunshine-yellow. But I keep pressing toward it, because there is no alternative and I am choosing to live by Your word that You would go with me. And I need You more than ever now because the darkness is scaring my kids, disturbing my wife, and testing the faith of everyone who loves and cares about me... and even some people who can't even stand me. It's day by day, moment by moment, squeezing your hand until my hand hurts. I don't know when this valley will end. I do not even know for sure that I will survive all this. But I do know I will follow You all the way to the devil's doorstep and I will never look back. I just hope there is a happy ending someday on this side of the River. Until then I'm here with you, walking through the Valley of the Shadow... bumping into the most hideous demons I have ever faced... trusting You. I trust You.