To Live Another Day

My current situation is not just. I don't care how objective you may be, there are good guys and there are bad guys in this one. And for right now, the bad guys appear to be winning. I will likely never forget as I trust God to help me forgive. But for now the barbarians are setting the terms... the walls around my castle are now crumbled around my feet... and so it's now a matter of dealing with reality and living out what it means to be faithful when I'm pretty sure no squadron of angels is at the ready to make everything right. I swallow my pride and just make the turn-on-a-dime move from half a lifetime of ministry to one of punching a clock. Everything in me is screaming, "This is baloney!" But then there's another voice that whispers, "But what does God want?" And I wonder if God has not taken people's perverted sense of leadership and used it for His own purposes to violently shift my life toward something else He wants me to do... something I cannot even perceive or imagine right now. God will take care of justice... He will see me through... I do trust Him. I think it is human to look for some skulls to crack, but I submit that to His Lordship. I will do what it takes for my family and me to survive... to get through... so that we might live another day... just hoping and praying that in all of this there is a happy ending before heaven.